Blog(as found from the pages of wikipedia)is a blend of the term web log which is good enough for me but it does continue and goes on to say something about widgits. hmmm. I am not knowing. While I am certainly aware that I could use an expansion in the area of this magical computer world(it may not be magical to you but it sure is to me!) it never ceases no amaze me just how much I have to learn and that I can see that as a good thing. Truly.
So....I will start out by saying that I am a terrible speller. I always have been. I never really saw the point in conformity. And a word about punctuation and placement. Ugh. I write how I feel. I speak with my hands. I am a cryer. I am what some people would refer to as messy and I love love love to make people feel uncomfortable. Ha. I refer to it as stirring the pot. Life is too short. Let your mascara run a little bit sister.
I decided to start this blog mostly because I am going through some pretty big stuff in my life right now and just need to get it out. I have always been a girl that loves to talk talk talk and trust me...I do A LOT of it but you may notice that right now it is 3am and due to the circumstances of my life, I am not sleeping. So here I am. As Ram Das said so wisely so long ago Be Here Now which if I may, is not always easy. I suppose that I will just cut to the chase here and let the cat out of the bag....about three months ago I had my first known tonic clonic seizure(formally known as grand mal)although those of you who know me and love me(thank you!)know that I was a bit of a party girl back in the day and there may have been some seizure activity in the past. It has been a wild experience! I have had a bunch of seizures since then and have come to learn that I have what is called Temporal Lobe Epilepsy(TLE)which is what Van Gogh had for all of you who are just wondering why I am so wonderful!
As I learn and grow in understanding of all of this it is my intention to chronicle my experience. I would love any experience, strength, hope and wisdom that I can get right now. I know that it is all good and that millions of people live with this but we all have our own unique process and how we get to our place of acceptance is ours. That is the biggest thing that I have learned from all of this. Opinions really don't mean a whole lot to me. I want to hear about your experience. Experience means everything. If you do not have the experience or if you can not get down and dirty with me in the muckity muck and let your mascara run because you have let your humanness come through than leave it locked up at home please. I do not want it. And if this confuses you or pisses you off I say good then. I hope that you continue to come back to my blogett.
From one "talker" to another let me say, the interwebs are a dark bottomless pit of garbage-out. You'll successfully get a lot of what's weighing on you vented into the digital cosmos but don't expect a lot of intelligent response.(irony not lost)
ReplyDeleteI'm proud of you for your ability to "release the hounds" so to speak and I can only imagine what you are going through with your epilepsy, although you refer to it very casually I know it must be frightening.
I'm sorry I don't have any memories of these ill fitted bikinis but I know the sound of a raging harley, don't feel too guilty it still could be the cause, those suckers are offensively abusive to the brain. I'll never understand the desire to be noticed for noise pollution.
Good to have you back on the radar, the E-era is a marvelous one, although still in its infancy. Can you believe we'll forever be the generation that first utilized video-games and cell phones. Sort of an honor...sort of.